I like to think that I am a patient person when it comes to big things. Things like waiting for the same person for four years, which judging by the multitude of week-long relationships in high school, is pretty rare. Course, that's as much as my never having a chance in the first place as being good at constancy. Somehow though, I chose to spend those four years waiting for someone who in the end didn't say yes, or even no - it was a case of the silence being louder than any stream of pretty phrases he could think of.
I thought I knew him well enough to expect otherwise.
I also never used to mind being single before.
So another Valentine's Day is coming up, coinciding with Chinese New Year, and a week before my birthday. I am determined to make it something worth celebrating, which involves making sure my day is occupied as much as possible. So far the itinerary includes a shift at work, then going to see a movie afterwards. I will also be eating copious amounts of chocolate, and so far, I am looking forward to it.
Now however is the time for me to start doubting a few things. The romantic in me believes that there is in fact someone for everyone, and that eventually, hopefully, you'll find them. The realist...not so much. Therefore, is my lack of success more a matter of my simply not having met someone who will feel the same way, or something else? And if I were honest with myself, would I honestly rather even just one failed relationship, versus none at all?
love.
Yearning
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have a nice day
Gerrit
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